Put me out of my misery
Today I found the reason to stop going against everything I believe. I’m the reason. This is effecting me so much. I’m a trainwreck, and so not me. I’m digging deeper into a pit that I don’t much care for myself. I foudn the strength to move on friday, and then fell right back in monday.
I can be okay with a guy in my life. I don’t need a guy. I need God, and for him to be first in my life. I need to need God.
I can’t go on like this anymore. Its absolutely miserable.
What I’m Going to Do:
- Break it off with B.
- Move out of the house.
- Go to church as much as possible.
- Be me. Finally just be me, and be okay that i’m me and thats all God expectsof me..
I miss church, and miss how much I enjoy it. I want to again. And I will. Its time to fall backin love with God. and allthis hurt will go away. Everything will fall into place. And I wont forget my days.
God, put me out of my misery.
